Simon
snapped a few pictures of the dining room. Baboor had the
woman in the living room, Stockard was upstairs with the son.
Simon
had been teamed with Karen Stockard and Asha Baboor on a number of
assignments. They always got along well and their styles in the field
complimented each other. On the drive over today, though, Simon had
felt irritated by them both. Their voices, their conversation. Any
time they asked him a question, always friendly, always polite, he
bristled. They were talking about social stuff - they usually sorted
and prepped all the work stuff in the office before leaving - but he
felt so disconnected, so out of touch with the world and lives they
were chatting about, it was almost painful. He wasn't surprised when
they offered to conduct the interviews.
He
snapped a few more shots then moved into the kitchen. He could hear
Baboor speaking with the woman, her voice gentle, calmly drawing
answers from her. The woman started to sound more tense, Baboor
shifted her tone slightly to try and keep her grounded. It didn't
work; the woman slipped into anger instead. Got defensive.
Suddenly,
Simon found himself striding into the living room.
Baboor was sitting
on the couch facing the woman who was seated in a chair beside it.
Baboor read his posture right away and stood up.
"Who
do you think you are?" Simon growled at the woman. Her eyes
widened in shock at his tone.
"Agent
Light -" Baboor said, trying to cut in.
He
didn't stop. "We're here trying to help you and you shut us out?
You're lucky Agent Baboor is doing the interview - I'd be smacking
the info out of you if you tried that tone with me."
The
woman looked terrified and confused, pressed back into the chair,
hands clutching the sides.
Baboor
realized that she had to meet his level, even though it meant showing
dissonance in front of the woman. "Agent Light! Back into the
kitchen right now!"
Stockard
appeared at the top of the stairs. The son called down, "Mom, are
you ok?"
In
his mind Simon was yelling SHUTUP SHUTUP SHEISNOTOK YOUARENOTOK
LEAVEMEALONE SHUTUP but he managed to stop the words from coming out.
Managed to turn around head back to the other room. Heard Baboor and
Stockard speaking to the mother and son.
Simon
imagined drawing his pistol, firing randomly into the room, imagined
surrendering to violence, the terrible freedom of it. Anything to get
him outside, get him out of whatever he was trapped in. His hand rose
up before him. He was holding his cellphone, not the pistol. It
hadn't rang in days.
"Where
are you?" he whispered to it.
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